Wednesday, October 20, 2021

i'm a little unfamiliar with this spreadsheet

i'm a little unfamiliar with this spreadsheet
and not sure of the process

but the way is informal
we play the game 'is business still a thing'

ha ha ha ha


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i fixed the broken table

i fixed the broken table
it had been flawed for so long
a daily reproach 

part of the top punched through
the slats piled on it crossways

glued in place and reinforced
now shabby chic though disturbing 



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Friday, October 15, 2021

i rake pine needles

i rake pine needles
as the wind blows
there's so many of them

where do the come from
oh yes 
the tree


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it is fall and the weather is changing

it is fall and the weather is changing
when i walk to the mailbox to send two letters
the sun is bright but my ears and cheeks get cold

winter starts quickly when you aren't waiting for it  

last night at the restaurant for dessert 
we had coconut ice cream and bananas with chocolate sauce
the bananas were golden in puff pastry that had been fried

we didn't fight over it
but we ate it quickly 
laughing 

i looked out over the tables into the dusk's high dark blue sky
below that a sash of perfect darkness that were smooth clouds
holding lightening miles and miles off

when you asked me if i was holding my breath
 i said no

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Wednesday, October 13, 2021

we all pay debts we cannot afford

we all pay debts we cannot afford
that is part of living and committing acts
sometimes they're needed more often not  
if only we had more prudentia 

justitia is up there on a pillar on the mount
always white even in the dark and blindfolded
seeing with all her self as the scales sway
with just the hidden flick of the wrist

you can live in perpetual penury paying off 
what is owed by others and fearing a sword 
or you could choose to be joyful inside every action

through faith and action 

in equanimity
dread creeds fade unholy deals unmade

have courage in choosing a life and view then
committing to it and making it true rather
than what society has told you again and again 
when it rarely believes what it insists

pay or be free go or stay but strive to be more
than what you saw and what was thought
by yourself or anyone else who said they thought

now the heart's darkness resolved in it's own place
the undiminished sun of luminous clarity 
shines continuously 

see how wide and full the world is and as the sky
have good fortune wherever you go 
and in any company happy

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For Jñāna

Tuesday, October 12, 2021

do you trust toads more than frogs

do you trust toads more than frogs,
is it because of something that happened?
what could a frog or a toad do, to offend you?

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do magpies travel with luggage

do magpies travel with luggage --
if they do, is the luggage small?
could crows do a better job?


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there's so many weird questions

there's so many weird questions,
as many strange questions
as scary spiders, i bet


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how many dogs can you read

how many dogs can you read,
is it a finite number?
for me it is limitless


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Monday, October 11, 2021

there's outsiders on the stairs

there's outsiders on the stairs
thinking they don't belong 
but everything lives here

as the threshold is crossed
see they don't have to be proud
or even ashamed 

there's a delicate purple 
in the sky between tree branches
and the rooflines of dwellings


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i had a dream i was with a crowd of demons



i had a dream i was with a crowd of demons
it was all very funny until they realized 
i knew they were demons

then the atmosphere was a bit strained
so i left with a grandmother 
who climbed stairs like a spider

chop wood with me now in this poem 
the season is right and tonight
we might see the borealis so far south

small flakes of wood will fall from the stump
as the wood explodes into two pieces
and the axe goes deep into the log

you might be the demon who thought they hid
all along in plain sight and invited in
to cut wood or climb stairs as a grandma


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Thursday, October 07, 2021

We talked of the slide show in the circus

We talked of the slide show in the circus,
of how everyone there seems to be so happy --
they're freaks in bliss, and we're normal and not. 



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i take a look

i take a look into the medicine cabinet of my life
and see what is in there all my goddamn aspirin bullshit


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Saturday, October 02, 2021

going into soul

going into 
soul

looking for 
something

finding always 
soul


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