in your absence
i see me
i see how i hate my own company
i see how i reject solitude
now for the first time
in my life i do not turn away from this
nor do i embrace it
instead i wait until it becomes clear
i understand that you
have nothing to do with this ache
this ache that drove me
into the arms of women
it existed before i knew
any women
i see that i must go inside
and find the treasure there
a gift i had all along
yet never had the courage to uncover
solitude gives me the time
to decode the identity of the thinker
and see there is no separateness
i am not alone in solitude
because i discover a presence
that is the source of all happiness
free of cause and condtions
free of demands and ultimatums
free of you
free of me
still here
just more
loving to all
and funny
to find this
in the end
without
trying
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