beyond

everything on the outside
appears a demented but looking closer
i see it makes sense 

then looking closer by backing away

i am demented and back further

we are standing on a summit

all around us is the brightest sky

a total culmination arrived at by nature

beyond grace and faith 

look at me like a stump of a smashed candle/ or a lopsided tomb or a fool

look at me like a stump of a smashed candle
or a lopsided tomb or a fool

see me like the grapes in the valley

or a treetop touched by the sun or a flying bird

i wanted to give you a pocket of moonlight

sounds of water rubbing on pebbles

i'll listen to you but i won't judge 

follow you but not imitate your grace 

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honestly i have something more to say/ and it may be the truth

honestly i have something more to say

and it may be the truth 

but no honesty in me to say it 

my excuse is the long drive the fields

the history of feeling lost in words

or hiding in the plainest considerations

how many of us have stayed 

in this futile place as if in a place preferred

saying one is marooned yet one is not 

never stop seeking honestly

 what you can 

and wish to be even more clear

you will forget all your petty ideas and chores

stumbling blocks are like crumbs

like specks when we become 

bright inside like mountains 

write me something/ random and clever

write me something

random and clever

but never tell me

the truth 

be honest as the day

sure like sunlight

so when it rains

i'll smile 

be like my tears

or a book i loaned 

and never got back 

but all is well

i dream about the mechanics of dreams

i dream about the mechanics of dreams

i work on their stacks and piping 

i rummage in their bunkers and storehouses

walking for miles down corridors

going through caves 

 

i assign the ballast of bliss and of nightmares

i dream of all their illusive operations

i am assigned to work between the scenes 

i see where they illogically join

weld the broken seams 

in a phantom train yard

switching dreams like freight cars

run endlessly steady over the horizon 

i dwell on the timetable

read dream maps 

study dream histories 

i had something to say / i took a vacation from self

i had something to say 
but i left it alone 

and when i did this

everything smoothed out

became calm and easy

i took a vacation from self 

i don't know when i'll be back

plus when i left for my trip

i took everyone along for free

they get to do whatever they want

and this is a nice day

and this is a nice day

sky a robin's egg blue 

puffs of air ruffling your hair

each minute a peppermint

every hour like a flower 

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