more beautiful snow this bright morning / this time the flakes are bodhicitta

more beautiful snow this bright morning
this time the flakes are bodhicitta

zig-zagging back and forth loving absolutely without limit
everything above in the sky and below on this earth

i naturally think of you being loved by the snow
on this white still bright day


----

Osseo
Eagle Lake

true dharma makes us / want to shout

refusal
to challenges

brings
same results

arrogance
boredom

tedium
restlessness

true
dharma

makes us
want to shout

and
annihilate

our
illusions



**

you believe you live in a fortress / with a commanding view of all the world

you believe you live in a fortress
with a commanding view of all the world
and everyone in it

you think you are secure
with all the means and freedoms to succeed
through your will

but you live in a prison
that you made yourself and there is no vista
you can see no one

from time to time
you notice how small your cell is becoming
and go deeper into dreams

you suffer but you think
someone else is responsible
for a granting of parole

what a pitiful state
to be a prisoner in your own mind
and not surrender

all are lost in will
all imprisoned ego's slaves
until we let go


**

when it snows i don't think of anyone

when it snows i don't think of anyone
i don't miss someone

i watch the snow fall and the wind blow
free of everything

so content it takes an effort to believe
i'm here in this body

if i do remember you i'm instantly glad
and i don't miss you

you're here for a little bit and then gone
i don't hold onto anything

as long as it is snowing
i am free of my own mind

am and see
no difference



**

fond thoughts go nowhere/ yet i still believe in them

fond thoughts go nowhere
yet i still believe in them
and i still send them

i owe you a great debt
kindness you did for me
a long time ago

so i believe
you'd want me
to keep my heart warm

these words
like pebbles
into a great division

seeming endless
yet can be filed up
someday

in any case
there is no end
we are never separated

above or below
time are just illusions
and we are at play





**

my words
like martlets

merrythoughts
beyond douceur

cantillations
orectic to you



**

do you put on a brave face and pretend it does not ever hurt
i know all the reasons why it makes no sense to be hurt
to not feel let down
how you can't expect anything from anybody

just like watching the outside world
how could we be sad because the field was dappled in shade at noon
or it would thunder on the leaves
when it did storm did we know it so and our heart was crying

making long lists and getting all done
tucking shushing striving and pushing through the days as they rise and fall
befuddled what it means
not admitting this to anyone as a sign of weakness

being innoffensive
being kind to others
being devoted
praying constantly

eventually i am tired of my own thoughts
every single one of them they took me nowhere
so tonight i abandon myself
and i hope to not be so tight in the morning

i'll see the new light and not think of the face i wanted to see
i'll be easy and have no thinking about self or others
anything that happens
will be absolutely pristine


**

free of obnubilation
you are my heart's solander

i will be your spurrier
even a sun gazing stylite

this day as a mistigris
an omphalos

what you thought
was mere bawbee

in life's
anfractuous ways

transforms into
abracadabra amphisbaena


***

branches form a miniature dream cathedral / and the forging squirrels penitent

a new day with nothing wrong with it
like every day that ever was

you or me contemplating by way
of a window frosted round

looking at flecks of the immaculate
strangers to this earth fall and rest

so bright and cold the snow fallen
breaths and shifts with each wind

a new day with nothing wrong with it
you can just see past into a field

branches form a miniature cathedral
and the forging squirrels like penitents


_____

Jan 2
2018

Jan 2

a new day with nothing wrong with it
like every day that ever was

you or me stirring the contents
looking at flecks of the immaculate

proof of some kind of essay
via holy brain forge hammer and anvil

these residual sparks punctuate
highlight the otherwise drab suzerainty



----

Jan 2
2018

we trade examples of atrocities
because we don't really feel anything
arguing for some moral high ground
but actually we are as brutal

just not blamed yet nor subjugated
but in all things like depravity and cruelty
supply their own intimate sufferings
on those who have no common sense

to even do the most basic kindness
with a feeling of generosity or mercy 
part of the inferno in all of our hearts
is quelled of hell for the rest of us



****

sickness and the kind of sleep/ that defeats the mind

sickness and the kind of sleep
that defeats the mind
vanquishes ego
and in these timeless spaces
the inner eye astounded
vibrant scenes flashing
one upon the other
each one exquisite in detail
down to clockworks
and every angel
dancing on them

sickness memories like carousels
spinning building vistas grand
cannot happen to be amazed
seeing a versailles
viewing a mahal
but 1000 more
then 10,000
then turning
then banished
all fallen ways into
whatever you happen to see
has eaten this too





___

12.30.17

12.22.17

may our hearts be full
and we decide
how lucky and blessed we are
viewing a yard of snow
admiring the room we are in
with a couch a book
a pet or a friend

and going outside
the snap of cold air
seeing family and loved ones
love increases
we are part of the dance
may our hearts be full
and we decide
how lucky and blessed we are


**

Poem: in praise of this day/ and all days before you

in praise of this day
and all days before you

anything concerning
just like a temporary veil

passing before us
only for a moment

the underlying truth
with no fear no obscurity

with such a view
with simple aspirations of love

this day it represents
becomes limitless



___

meeting someone / like going to a new country

meeting someone
like going to a new country
unique customs interests and history

meeting someone
great distances inside
of past present and future

land and disposition
contained in every small thought

place and rare qualities
through every deed you do

meeting someone new



**

Poem: i am dreaming right now / and so are you

i am dreaming right now
and so are you
why not dream a good dream

last night i saw the snow
falling with no wind
each flake evenly spaced and big

it seemed the whole world
was moving up as the flakes
were absolutely still



***

Osseo

Reprise

you found
by ceasing to search

located
the endless country

and
we are all at home




***

Poem: located in the very heart of you/ the endless country

you found what is not lost
by ceasing to search

located in the very heart of you
the endless country

where everything is in place
and we are all at home



X

Poem: Everything and Every Wonder I Create

this morning
sun

it is lightly
snowing

glittering 

of eternal snowflakes

white sky

the color of peach

god saying

give me any view

or attitude

idea or thought

and i will

overwhelm it

with the

amazement

you
will feel

when you see 

everything

and

every 

wonder

i create

____

12.05.17