A Strong Storm Today

i read at least 15 pages a day
on events that would make you cry
being strong and wise takes its toll




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The Right Discussion For That

i'm not overly honest on feast or famine
i don't want to suffer too much
or be frightening everyone all day




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Manage That Last Relationship

there is unending support of my arguments
for me to win but that is not what i want

begrudgingly admit it is your own fault due to negativity
or sins from some past life's recycling bill



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when i think of home

when i think of home

white walls and red tile roof
halfway up the hill with deer and quail

i remember the backyard deck
our dalmatians
who escaped if they could
into the christmas tree farm next door

three lawns to mow
the smell of wet hot grass
as i dumped out
the lawnmower bag in the garden

my mother scaring off the dogs
from digging in the corn with mousetraps
she got the snails
with small saucers of beer

the dogs would eat grapes off the vine
they'd sit under the vines
eat in the shade
i was the one that taught them

later friends would come over

i picked my room because i could see them
when they came up the street



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Click Click

gold plated squirrel traps
don't catch rodents made of gold

but if you go looking
you may find a leak in the roof


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Well There You Go

nobody has courtesy names
so we don't know who is who
in the office or on the street


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Bang Around on Every Device

graciously he acted without grace
to prove it could be done

how lovelier the world would be
if we'd stop making fun of fun


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a season of nothing will be brighter and happier than you will ever be

a season of nothing will be brighter and happier than you will ever be
so why do you say the stems are too long on these flowers
or the endless horizons are too far



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Is This One

it is joels fault
it is your fault
it is literally my fault




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I'm Listening and Thinking

thoughts and prayers
powered by hopes and dreams
and intentional cruelty



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Did You Say 18 Months?

it just seems really strange
if that makes you feel
so much better


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Uh ... Cat 5!

ha ha ha ha
bam bam bam bam
i'm just gonna say yes



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Oh Yah

this door could be useful
turns out it blocks
installed the wrong way




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We are Making Progress

all have various things
we regard not as a sin
to offer to other people



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5% of Them Were 6 People on a Terrible Job

what dread i feel
on such a gentle level
one accustomed to it



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The Conversation is Almost Inconceivable

i can find things
but if i do
i am telling lies



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i dream everything makes sense

i dream everything makes sense
even you being gone
everything i lost

every question i wanted answered
every riddle for solving
plainly laid out

that was great and i thanked god
i thanked buddha and padmakara too
everyone was involved

i woke up and the feeling stayed
nothing is wrong everything in place
just as it should be

i was free of a load i've been carrying
the weight of thinking and knowing worry
understanding you'll find no answers

simple certainty stayed for many days
then slowly fades and i compare raindrops to raindrops

and i get back into hating you
and missing everything i think i lost

which motivates me in the end
to keep dreaming and making sense

dreaming the mountain the camp and the climbers

dreaming the mountain the camp and the climbers
perfect blue sky with no storms for climbing
one peak a shoulder the other my nose
time holds still if i move and proceeds when i'm still



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desire is like a seed

desire is like a seed
every mind grows beyond it
if the consciousnesses will ever flower

heartbroken over
a saturday night call that was never made
my life just the thread in a cheap detective story





xxxxx

soaring heart/ clashing brain

soaring heart
clashing brain
and a mean little mind
inside called pride
who'd have you
store everything
keep it locked
till you die

so don't



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