at night when i get tired and it is late
i want to talk to you i always want to talk to you
it will never happen and it is okay but it is a bit sad too
all these causes and conditions and the intangibles that rule us
and beyond irony we think that we make conscious choices
when the impulses of most of our decisions are based
on whims or however we happen to think we feel at the time
then permanent set and ego testifies this is how we always have felt
nothing else matters and someone else will make us happy
someone else has the solution
we believe in with all our heart
to a problem that does not exist
never existed but we created
**
Saturday, February 03, 2018
Friday, February 02, 2018
love is like money / you can't get it by wanting it
love is like money
you can't get it by wanting it
you have to earn it
it is a bad thing
when you don't know how
to work for love
**
you can't get it by wanting it
you have to earn it
it is a bad thing
when you don't know how
to work for love
**
Thursday, February 01, 2018
i can't make it rain / or get you to love me
i can't make it rain
or get you to love me
like finding a desert
but wishing for an ocean
how can i complain
or be dissatisfied
wherever you travel
we are where we go
***
or get you to love me
like finding a desert
but wishing for an ocean
how can i complain
or be dissatisfied
wherever you travel
we are where we go
***
maybe you can teach me something i want to know
maybe you can teach me something i want to know
a lesson i've been praying to learn because i know how badly i need it
instructions that will ease my skillfulness and insistence on creating drama
seeing everything and everyone as how i want them to be not how they are
because talent i have for this and inventiveness to color in and out of the lines
skill i have to attribute drama and plot pacing the rising and falling of stars
to conjure people out of shadows and significance from incomplete delusions
is a misery
the end of the day
me here and you there
a great moon rising into the dark sky
getting brighter as the sky darkens
i cross the dark space
into a bright series of rooms
and everyone i know there
has seen how big the moon is
*
a lesson i've been praying to learn because i know how badly i need it
instructions that will ease my skillfulness and insistence on creating drama
seeing everything and everyone as how i want them to be not how they are
because talent i have for this and inventiveness to color in and out of the lines
skill i have to attribute drama and plot pacing the rising and falling of stars
to conjure people out of shadows and significance from incomplete delusions
is a misery
the end of the day
me here and you there
a great moon rising into the dark sky
getting brighter as the sky darkens
i cross the dark space
into a bright series of rooms
and everyone i know there
has seen how big the moon is
*
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
your thoughts like dogs getting into a kitchen
your thoughts like dogs getting into a kitchen
rooting & getting at all the food on the counters
ruining the meal for everyone who waited
even you and all the bounty you gathered
into yourself you trampled and slobbered over
the untrained thoughts we run with
mind slipping past and all the mischief
this exuberant savagery revels to create
rebellious purposes and justified revenge
later causing weeping and isolation
turn from the braying of the world
braggarts would have you be like a dog
flinging treasure onto the ground
despoiling your own self
as you try to outrun death
****
rooting & getting at all the food on the counters
ruining the meal for everyone who waited
even you and all the bounty you gathered
into yourself you trampled and slobbered over
the untrained thoughts we run with
mind slipping past and all the mischief
this exuberant savagery revels to create
rebellious purposes and justified revenge
later causing weeping and isolation
turn from the braying of the world
braggarts would have you be like a dog
flinging treasure onto the ground
despoiling your own self
as you try to outrun death
****
Tuesday, January 30, 2018
i won't confuse you by talking in code / but i am trying to elude my own committee
i won't confuse you by talking in code
but i am trying to elude my own committee
my own rectifiers certifiers and checkers
that perform search and destroy missions
to eradicate communication and personalities
from the purity and whimsy of the subconscious
we all born with this galactic channel of bliss
beating behind the beating of our heart
the color of the color behind the eyes
insistent and spontaneous full of surprises
full of challenge and revealing play and kindness
lifting us out of the tyranny of ego and will
yet expunged expunged denied expunged
explained blunted broken burned
electro shocked removed crafted curtained
through this we discovered
and those who would cure us
it cannot be shut nor turned
if it is universal and true
the seat of every expression
in the center of all directions
it cannot be trained nor tinned
^^^
but i am trying to elude my own committee
my own rectifiers certifiers and checkers
that perform search and destroy missions
to eradicate communication and personalities
from the purity and whimsy of the subconscious
we all born with this galactic channel of bliss
beating behind the beating of our heart
the color of the color behind the eyes
insistent and spontaneous full of surprises
full of challenge and revealing play and kindness
lifting us out of the tyranny of ego and will
yet expunged expunged denied expunged
explained blunted broken burned
electro shocked removed crafted curtained
through this we discovered
and those who would cure us
it cannot be shut nor turned
if it is universal and true
the seat of every expression
in the center of all directions
it cannot be trained nor tinned
^^^
go to the highest height / eat sliver and gold
go to the highest height
eat sliver and gold
is your culture holding you down
take geophysical readings
find the context by extending
on an early day
unwrap you eyes from cotton
unhinge your eyes from snow
go to the magic cafe
lay the marble tea
find context from the poets
your culture lied to you
about silver and gold
about what is higher and lower
you are under the earth
your eyes are buried
in stratification and a feature
find an early day
full of golden light inviting
escape your own will
escape silver and gold
break out from the cafe
say fuck off to your culture
make the oaths accountable
only to who matters you
wisdom the day out heart
and mind out of forges
endlessly higher
meet the stars
**
eat sliver and gold
is your culture holding you down
take geophysical readings
find the context by extending
on an early day
unwrap you eyes from cotton
unhinge your eyes from snow
go to the magic cafe
lay the marble tea
find context from the poets
your culture lied to you
about silver and gold
about what is higher and lower
you are under the earth
your eyes are buried
in stratification and a feature
find an early day
full of golden light inviting
escape your own will
escape silver and gold
break out from the cafe
say fuck off to your culture
make the oaths accountable
only to who matters you
wisdom the day out heart
and mind out of forges
endlessly higher
meet the stars
**
Sunday, January 28, 2018
true mania cannot see proofs for its own self
true mania cannot see proofs for its own self
i am the maniac who thinks they are even-keeled
i swear i am largely unoffensive and mild
but i crackle with energy and am always disruptive
offended toward what i think is boring or superfluous
which actually are just examples of consideration
towards others and how they deserve to be treated
with compassion gentleness and dignity
***
i am the maniac who thinks they are even-keeled
i swear i am largely unoffensive and mild
but i crackle with energy and am always disruptive
offended toward what i think is boring or superfluous
which actually are just examples of consideration
towards others and how they deserve to be treated
with compassion gentleness and dignity
***
sunday afternoon before 3 / a few flakes of snow fall
sunday afternoon before 3
a few flakes of snow fall
the cat sleeps curled up
i read other people's poetry
it is a forgetting of self
a release like looking at snow flakes
reading another poet
now again hearing people
in the apartment above
creaking creaking walking shuffling
bumping banging shifting creaking
thumping walking
putting on a cd of music
sounds above move to the background
in all this there is a mantra
that is very specific for what i notice
... whatever sounds are heard
... be they pleasant or annoying
... hear them as sounds of emptiness
... remain in that state without judgment
i am connected so intimately
with every sense and creature perceived
every person i am with in poems
snow cats music and walkers above
**
a few flakes of snow fall
the cat sleeps curled up
i read other people's poetry
it is a forgetting of self
a release like looking at snow flakes
reading another poet
now again hearing people
in the apartment above
creaking creaking walking shuffling
bumping banging shifting creaking
thumping walking
putting on a cd of music
sounds above move to the background
in all this there is a mantra
that is very specific for what i notice
... whatever sounds are heard
... be they pleasant or annoying
... hear them as sounds of emptiness
... remain in that state without judgment
i am connected so intimately
with every sense and creature perceived
every person i am with in poems
snow cats music and walkers above
**
Friday, January 26, 2018
realm of desire / land of no fear
realm of desire
land of no fear
put something before me
another house
another face
another form
so i may burn it to ashes
with the fire in my eyes
furnace of my brain
****
land of no fear
put something before me
another house
another face
another form
so i may burn it to ashes
with the fire in my eyes
furnace of my brain
****
put something before me / another face
put something before me
another face
so i may burn it to ashes
with the fire in my eyes and the
furnace of my brain
isn't this the way we go
to destruction ourselves
turned from breathing
warm flesh with feelings
to nothing at all
in the crucible of
electronic exchanges
humanity now
string of numbers
sterile signals
back into patterns
meaningless stacked
endlessly
atoms emptiness
void
none of us were disposable
none of us were forgettable
none of us were cliche
or useless
or undesirable
***
another face
so i may burn it to ashes
with the fire in my eyes and the
furnace of my brain
isn't this the way we go
to destruction ourselves
turned from breathing
warm flesh with feelings
to nothing at all
in the crucible of
electronic exchanges
humanity now
string of numbers
sterile signals
back into patterns
meaningless stacked
endlessly
atoms emptiness
void
none of us were disposable
none of us were forgettable
none of us were cliche
or useless
or undesirable
***
this day for today
this day for today
has no set form we can have it
any way we want it to be
you could say it started
with a tear or a hurrah
and kept going that way
let us be vigilant then
true awake bright and here
today a persistent perfection
if you have bad cares
let the day convince you
it should be otherwise
do it through yourself
with a kind thought or smile
for you and someone else
winnowing out all errant
untamed and random wild
we become more reasonable
even to ourselves
even to the sky even to you
even to what is wild
***
has no set form we can have it
any way we want it to be
you could say it started
with a tear or a hurrah
and kept going that way
let us be vigilant then
true awake bright and here
today a persistent perfection
if you have bad cares
let the day convince you
it should be otherwise
do it through yourself
with a kind thought or smile
for you and someone else
winnowing out all errant
untamed and random wild
we become more reasonable
even to ourselves
even to the sky even to you
even to what is wild
***
Thursday, January 25, 2018
let go to hold on
let go to hold on
hold on by seeing
there is very little
that must be done
what must be done
is already in doing
**
hold on by seeing
there is very little
that must be done
what must be done
is already in doing
**
Monday, January 22, 2018
what a blessing to feel there are blessings to be had
what a blessing to feel there are blessings to be had
for having courage to even make peace with doubts
then nothing needs to be altered or be different
may it change or be the same however it may be
because you and i are the gatekeeper and we are the gate
we see a desert space bereft of all hope or a holy field farflung
indeed became full when we allowed ourselves to be included
***
for having courage to even make peace with doubts
then nothing needs to be altered or be different
may it change or be the same however it may be
because you and i are the gatekeeper and we are the gate
we see a desert space bereft of all hope or a holy field farflung
indeed became full when we allowed ourselves to be included
***
on monday morning it is snowing which means
on monday morning it is snowing which means
everything is perfect and nothing needs to be changed
traffic will go slower but who cares when we can watch
a new world be created that turns into a fairyland over all
which was rough or dirty or too familiar now becomes palaces
for the eye to admire all the twigs decorated with ice crystals
offerings extending into infinity the wonder it can be
***
everything is perfect and nothing needs to be changed
traffic will go slower but who cares when we can watch
a new world be created that turns into a fairyland over all
which was rough or dirty or too familiar now becomes palaces
for the eye to admire all the twigs decorated with ice crystals
offerings extending into infinity the wonder it can be
***
Friday, January 19, 2018
we take few risks rarely budge for our small orbits
we take few risks rarely budge for our small orbits
social media and text have made us shadows to each other
you or i could be anything like silhouettes cast on the wall
the work of inventive hands -- as a dove as a wolf as angel or savior
or just telling tales and fancies with symbols and charms
that eventually are false because there is no substitute
for the presence of another who might honestly meet us halfway
alas the heart shrivels
in the vacuum of this space
i am the electronic ozymandias
look upon my works and feel nothing
**
social media and text have made us shadows to each other
you or i could be anything like silhouettes cast on the wall
the work of inventive hands -- as a dove as a wolf as angel or savior
or just telling tales and fancies with symbols and charms
that eventually are false because there is no substitute
for the presence of another who might honestly meet us halfway
alas the heart shrivels
in the vacuum of this space
i am the electronic ozymandias
look upon my works and feel nothing
**
Thursday, January 18, 2018
god take me there and keep me there if you can all the days of my life
i don't understand anything do you?
i can merely report what i seem to be seeing and what i choose
the freeway is flowing along smoothly this late afternoon
the customary speed when dusk is coming
adjacent field has the last bit of sunshine flung out
all the reeds above a snowy ice covered pocket lake
with a charming wall of clouds in the background
even a few birds in the sky like thoughts in my mind
blissfully unconnected with details on this slice of awarenss
to stay just in seeing without any thoughts connected
only in awareness of things as they are and not how i'd like them to be
god take me there and keep me there if you can all the days of my life
888
i can merely report what i seem to be seeing and what i choose
the freeway is flowing along smoothly this late afternoon
the customary speed when dusk is coming
adjacent field has the last bit of sunshine flung out
all the reeds above a snowy ice covered pocket lake
with a charming wall of clouds in the background
even a few birds in the sky like thoughts in my mind
blissfully unconnected with details on this slice of awarenss
to stay just in seeing without any thoughts connected
only in awareness of things as they are and not how i'd like them to be
god take me there and keep me there if you can all the days of my life
888
the company and you
the company rips your mind out and stomps on it
you accept this because you've been socialized
to be a good worker and keep your chin up no matter what
if you complain you won't be able to get another job
but there is no reward to being a good worker
the only rewards go to the company run by investors
girted in the armor of algorithms
nor care about anything real in the world
the company gets rid of you with an offer you cannot refuse
you accept this because you're human ballast
but you thought you were something else
you are money houses cars yard pool revenge tie and dining
you are vacation hawaii dancing sessions prep school martyrdom
you are liar oil popping time waster subordinate grinding angry face
you are excuses fucker private prison bitcoin bitch investor wannabe
girted in the armor of what could have been
and what illusions could be
nor care about anything real in the world
---
you accept this because you've been socialized
to be a good worker and keep your chin up no matter what
if you complain you won't be able to get another job
but there is no reward to being a good worker
the only rewards go to the company run by investors
girted in the armor of algorithms
nor care about anything real in the world
the company gets rid of you with an offer you cannot refuse
you accept this because you're human ballast
but you thought you were something else
you are money houses cars yard pool revenge tie and dining
you are vacation hawaii dancing sessions prep school martyrdom
you are liar oil popping time waster subordinate grinding angry face
you are excuses fucker private prison bitcoin bitch investor wannabe
girted in the armor of what could have been
and what illusions could be
nor care about anything real in the world
---
Wednesday, January 17, 2018
here are pictures of me 1,000 years ago
here are pictures of me 1,000 years ago
when i was young and we breathed outside
on the place called earth that you say does not exist
or is a fairy tale or fantasy to instruct and warn
the little ones to conserve energy and think twice
in the pictures you'll notice i am not made of chrome fibers
that i had a body of flesh and bone made in a womb
no multidimensional quantum bubbles no scintillating synapses
no ocean we all share of calculation and sensations
yes we were separate from each other
separation that almost doomed us
it perverted all our thinking from wholesome outcomes
we lived in fear because of our bodies and couldn't surrender
when earth was almost destroyed we were removed
here are pictures of me 1,000 years ago
***
when i was young and we breathed outside
on the place called earth that you say does not exist
or is a fairy tale or fantasy to instruct and warn
the little ones to conserve energy and think twice
in the pictures you'll notice i am not made of chrome fibers
that i had a body of flesh and bone made in a womb
no multidimensional quantum bubbles no scintillating synapses
no ocean we all share of calculation and sensations
yes we were separate from each other
separation that almost doomed us
it perverted all our thinking from wholesome outcomes
we lived in fear because of our bodies and couldn't surrender
when earth was almost destroyed we were removed
here are pictures of me 1,000 years ago
***
Tuesday, January 16, 2018
towards end of day / i can see
towards end of day
i can see
a shaft of sunlight
across the field
illuminates
the tops of reeds
and a light pole
straight and bright
farther back
in the landscape
rows of cars drive
towards
the edge of light
like the pole
signifies a barrier
past is death
but they drive on to it
cars drive past it
they don't know
don't know
live or dead
they don't know
-----
Minnetonka
1.16.18
i can see
a shaft of sunlight
across the field
illuminates
the tops of reeds
and a light pole
straight and bright
farther back
in the landscape
rows of cars drive
towards
the edge of light
like the pole
signifies a barrier
past is death
but they drive on to it
cars drive past it
they don't know
don't know
live or dead
they don't know
-----
Minnetonka
1.16.18
Sunday, January 14, 2018
let it keep snowing / and i'll play jazz records
let it keep snowing
and i'll play jazz records
tree branches will wave
in stray gusts of wind
the cat will be fascinated
with racing squirrels getting food
may it snow intricately
fulsomely ensorcelly continuously
let it keep snowing
and i'll play jazz records
_____
Osseo
and i'll play jazz records
tree branches will wave
in stray gusts of wind
the cat will be fascinated
with racing squirrels getting food
may it snow intricately
fulsomely ensorcelly continuously
let it keep snowing
and i'll play jazz records
_____
Osseo
more beautiful snow this bright morning / this time the flakes are bodhicitta
more beautiful snow this bright morning
this time the flakes are bodhicitta
zig-zagging back and forth loving absolutely without limit
everything above in the sky and below on this earth
i naturally think of you being loved by the snow
on this white still bright day
----
Osseo
Eagle Lake
this time the flakes are bodhicitta
zig-zagging back and forth loving absolutely without limit
everything above in the sky and below on this earth
i naturally think of you being loved by the snow
on this white still bright day
----
Osseo
Eagle Lake
Saturday, January 13, 2018
true dharma makes us / want to shout
refusal
to challenges
brings
same results
arrogance
boredom
tedium
restlessness
true
dharma
makes us
want to shout
and
annihilate
our
illusions
**
to challenges
brings
same results
arrogance
boredom
tedium
restlessness
true
dharma
makes us
want to shout
and
annihilate
our
illusions
**
you believe you live in a fortress / with a commanding view of all the world
you believe you live in a fortress
with a commanding view of all the world
and everyone in it
you think you are secure
with all the means and freedoms to succeed
through your will
but you live in a prison
that you made yourself and there is no vista
you can see no one
from time to time
you notice how small your cell is becoming
and go deeper into dreams
you suffer but you think
someone else is responsible
for a granting of parole
what a pitiful state
to be a prisoner in your own mind
and not surrender
all are lost in will
all imprisoned ego's slaves
until we let go
**
with a commanding view of all the world
and everyone in it
you think you are secure
with all the means and freedoms to succeed
through your will
but you live in a prison
that you made yourself and there is no vista
you can see no one
from time to time
you notice how small your cell is becoming
and go deeper into dreams
you suffer but you think
someone else is responsible
for a granting of parole
what a pitiful state
to be a prisoner in your own mind
and not surrender
all are lost in will
all imprisoned ego's slaves
until we let go
**
Thursday, January 11, 2018
when it snows i don't think of anyone
when it snows i don't think of anyone
i don't miss someone
i watch the snow fall and the wind blow
free of everything
so content it takes an effort to believe
i'm here in this body
if i do remember you i'm instantly glad
and i don't miss you
you're here for a little bit and then gone
i don't hold onto anything
as long as it is snowing
i am free of my own mind
am and see
no difference
**
i don't miss someone
i watch the snow fall and the wind blow
free of everything
so content it takes an effort to believe
i'm here in this body
if i do remember you i'm instantly glad
and i don't miss you
you're here for a little bit and then gone
i don't hold onto anything
as long as it is snowing
i am free of my own mind
am and see
no difference
**
Monday, January 08, 2018
fond thoughts go nowhere/ yet i still believe in them
fond thoughts go nowhere
yet i still believe in them
and i still send them
i owe you a great debt
kindness you did for me
a long time ago
so i believe
you'd want me
to keep my heart warm
these words
like pebbles
into a great division
seeming endless
yet can be filed up
someday
in any case
there is no end
we are never separated
above or below
time are just illusions
and we are at play
**
yet i still believe in them
and i still send them
i owe you a great debt
kindness you did for me
a long time ago
so i believe
you'd want me
to keep my heart warm
these words
like pebbles
into a great division
seeming endless
yet can be filed up
someday
in any case
there is no end
we are never separated
above or below
time are just illusions
and we are at play
**
Sunday, January 07, 2018
Saturday, January 06, 2018
do you put on a brave face and pretend it does not ever hurt
i know all the reasons why it makes no sense to be hurt
to not feel let down
how you can't expect anything from anybody
just like watching the outside world
how could we be sad because the field was dappled in shade at noon
or it would thunder on the leaves
when it did storm did we know it so and our heart was crying
making long lists and getting all done
tucking shushing striving and pushing through the days as they rise and fall
befuddled what it means
not admitting this to anyone as a sign of weakness
being innoffensive
being kind to others
being devoted
praying constantly
eventually i am tired of my own thoughts
every single one of them they took me nowhere
so tonight i abandon myself
and i hope to not be so tight in the morning
i'll see the new light and not think of the face i wanted to see
i'll be easy and have no thinking about self or others
anything that happens
will be absolutely pristine
**
i know all the reasons why it makes no sense to be hurt
to not feel let down
how you can't expect anything from anybody
just like watching the outside world
how could we be sad because the field was dappled in shade at noon
or it would thunder on the leaves
when it did storm did we know it so and our heart was crying
making long lists and getting all done
tucking shushing striving and pushing through the days as they rise and fall
befuddled what it means
not admitting this to anyone as a sign of weakness
being innoffensive
being kind to others
being devoted
praying constantly
eventually i am tired of my own thoughts
every single one of them they took me nowhere
so tonight i abandon myself
and i hope to not be so tight in the morning
i'll see the new light and not think of the face i wanted to see
i'll be easy and have no thinking about self or others
anything that happens
will be absolutely pristine
**
Friday, January 05, 2018
Tuesday, January 02, 2018
branches form a miniature dream cathedral / and the forging squirrels penitent
a new day with nothing wrong with it
like every day that ever was
you or me contemplating by way
of a window frosted round
looking at flecks of the immaculate
strangers to this earth fall and rest
so bright and cold the snow fallen
breaths and shifts with each wind
a new day with nothing wrong with it
you can just see past into a field
branches form a miniature cathedral
and the forging squirrels like penitents
_____
Jan 2
2018
like every day that ever was
you or me contemplating by way
of a window frosted round
looking at flecks of the immaculate
strangers to this earth fall and rest
so bright and cold the snow fallen
breaths and shifts with each wind
a new day with nothing wrong with it
you can just see past into a field
branches form a miniature cathedral
and the forging squirrels like penitents
_____
Jan 2
2018
Jan 2
a new day with nothing wrong with it
like every day that ever was
you or me stirring the contents
looking at flecks of the immaculate
proof of some kind of essay
via holy brain forge hammer and anvil
these residual sparks punctuate
highlight the otherwise drab suzerainty
----
Jan 2
2018
like every day that ever was
you or me stirring the contents
looking at flecks of the immaculate
proof of some kind of essay
via holy brain forge hammer and anvil
these residual sparks punctuate
highlight the otherwise drab suzerainty
----
Jan 2
2018
Sunday, December 31, 2017
we trade examples of atrocities
because we don't really feel anything
arguing for some moral high ground
but actually we are as brutal
just not blamed yet nor subjugated
but in all things like depravity and cruelty
supply their own intimate sufferings
on those who have no common sense
to even do the most basic kindness
with a feeling of generosity or mercy
part of the inferno in all of our hearts
is quelled of hell for the rest of us
****
because we don't really feel anything
arguing for some moral high ground
but actually we are as brutal
just not blamed yet nor subjugated
but in all things like depravity and cruelty
supply their own intimate sufferings
on those who have no common sense
to even do the most basic kindness
with a feeling of generosity or mercy
part of the inferno in all of our hearts
is quelled of hell for the rest of us
****
Saturday, December 30, 2017
sickness and the kind of sleep/ that defeats the mind
sickness and the kind of sleep
that defeats the mind
vanquishes ego
and in these timeless spaces
the inner eye astounded
vibrant scenes flashing
one upon the other
each one exquisite in detail
down to clockworks
and every angel
dancing on them
sickness memories like carousels
spinning building vistas grand
cannot happen to be amazed
seeing a versailles
viewing a mahal
but 1000 more
then 10,000
then turning
then banished
all fallen ways into
whatever you happen to see
has eaten this too
___
12.30.17
that defeats the mind
vanquishes ego
and in these timeless spaces
the inner eye astounded
vibrant scenes flashing
one upon the other
each one exquisite in detail
down to clockworks
and every angel
dancing on them
sickness memories like carousels
spinning building vistas grand
cannot happen to be amazed
seeing a versailles
viewing a mahal
but 1000 more
then 10,000
then turning
then banished
all fallen ways into
whatever you happen to see
has eaten this too
___
12.30.17
Friday, December 22, 2017
12.22.17
may our hearts be full
and we decide
how lucky and blessed we are
viewing a yard of snow
admiring the room we are in
with a couch a book
a pet or a friend
and going outside
the snap of cold air
seeing family and loved ones
love increases
we are part of the dance
may our hearts be full
and we decide
how lucky and blessed we are
**
and we decide
how lucky and blessed we are
viewing a yard of snow
admiring the room we are in
with a couch a book
a pet or a friend
and going outside
the snap of cold air
seeing family and loved ones
love increases
we are part of the dance
may our hearts be full
and we decide
how lucky and blessed we are
**
Wednesday, December 20, 2017
Poem: in praise of this day/ and all days before you
in praise of this day
and all days before you
anything concerning
just like a temporary veil
passing before us
only for a moment
the underlying truth
with no fear no obscurity
with such a view
with simple aspirations of love
this day it represents
becomes limitless
___
and all days before you
anything concerning
just like a temporary veil
passing before us
only for a moment
the underlying truth
with no fear no obscurity
with such a view
with simple aspirations of love
this day it represents
becomes limitless
___
Sunday, December 17, 2017
meeting someone / like going to a new country
meeting someone
like going to a new country
unique customs interests and history
meeting someone
great distances inside
of past present and future
land and disposition
contained in every small thought
place and rare qualities
through every deed you do
meeting someone new
**
like going to a new country
unique customs interests and history
meeting someone
great distances inside
of past present and future
land and disposition
contained in every small thought
place and rare qualities
through every deed you do
meeting someone new
**
Thursday, December 14, 2017
Poem: i am dreaming right now / and so are you
i am dreaming right now
and so are you
why not dream a good dream
last night i saw the snow
falling with no wind
each flake evenly spaced and big
it seemed the whole world
was moving up as the flakes
were absolutely still
***
Osseo
and so are you
why not dream a good dream
last night i saw the snow
falling with no wind
each flake evenly spaced and big
it seemed the whole world
was moving up as the flakes
were absolutely still
***
Osseo
Saturday, December 09, 2017
Wednesday, December 06, 2017
Poem: located in the very heart of you/ the endless country
you found what is not lost
by ceasing to search
located in the very heart of you
the endless country
where everything is in place
and we are all at home
X
by ceasing to search
located in the very heart of you
the endless country
where everything is in place
and we are all at home
X
Tuesday, December 05, 2017
Poem: Everything and Every Wonder I Create
this morning
sun
sun
it is lightly
snowing
glittering
snowing
glittering
of eternal snowflakes
white sky
the color of peach
god saying
give me any view
or attitude
idea or thought
and i will
overwhelm it
with the
amazement
you
will feel
will feel
when you see
everything
and
every
wonder
i create
____
12.05.17
Sunday, November 26, 2017
Poem: trying not to fall over/ or into my past
trying not to fall over
or into my past
seeing it remembered
as decorations
rather than
mistakes or has beens
let us go lightly
if we do remember
the past is helpless
cannot defend against
idle probing
examination and thinking
do i realize
past is an illusion
do i realize
no one is there
do i see
there is only now
***
or into my past
seeing it remembered
as decorations
rather than
mistakes or has beens
let us go lightly
if we do remember
the past is helpless
cannot defend against
idle probing
examination and thinking
do i realize
past is an illusion
do i realize
no one is there
do i see
there is only now
***
Wednesday, November 22, 2017
Poem: Flintwood Drive
mid-morning was oddly calmserene in the view of everything
all around you had been incinerated
chimneys chimneys chimneys
piles of tile and appliances
some larger trees might come back
over ashes of my grandparent's house
all still in place in some order
despite the firestorm
where the gutters fell and twisted
one barrier you step over
to the main beam facing the front
of the garage that falls mostly intact
but charred all over it is solid piece of wood
you find things where they fell
or where something else covered them
the white ash layer has been rained on
now the consistency of cake frosting
sticks to your boots and hands
won't let go
looks pristine where you didn't touch it
a car with plates from oregon
drives slowly by and they slow down
to take their own pictures
the neighbors house has seven bicycles
all of them burned
lined up as a ghost parade
burned and then all rusted
eventually everything left is rusted
if it can
meanwhile mind goes up to the edge of feeling
then comes back mind goes up to an edge
pulls back and so on like waves
on a shore
but this is your heart and your mind clashing
somehow attempting to come to terms
with something that will not ever
be fully understood
----
Flintwood Drive
Santa Rosa
11.22.17
Tuesday, November 21, 2017
Poem: house / or apples under a tree
it takes faith to lose faith
and find new faith
the kind of faith
that brings you courage
drop what you think
give up what you hold
then we see
what we really are
consciousness as
luminous and deep as
a predawn sky
like with as
a billion billion
stars at night
going beyond
here and there
beyond
last weeks news
house
or apples under a tree
**
Clement Ct.
Napa CA
11.21.17
and find new faith
the kind of faith
that brings you courage
drop what you think
give up what you hold
then we see
what we really are
consciousness as
luminous and deep as
a predawn sky
like with as
a billion billion
stars at night
going beyond
here and there
beyond
last weeks news
house
or apples under a tree
**
Clement Ct.
Napa CA
11.21.17
Poem: everyone is open to wonder/ we are doomed if we deny this
everyone is open to wonder
we are doomed if we deny this
but not for long
the wonder is ceaseless
***
we are doomed if we deny this
but not for long
the wonder is ceaseless
***
Monday, November 20, 2017
Poem: love is like music
love is like music
we are the discordant notes
because love is perfect
with practice
you may learn to harmonize
but you'll never control
it can come and go
as quickly as it wants
stay or be gone forever or both
***
from the Forest of Love
11.20.17
we are the discordant notes
because love is perfect
with practice
you may learn to harmonize
but you'll never control
it can come and go
as quickly as it wants
stay or be gone forever or both
***
from the Forest of Love
11.20.17
Sunday, November 19, 2017
Poem: we visit the dairy/ at the crossroads/ of three ways
we visit the dairy
at the crossroads
of three ways
it has burned down
fire is violent
the buildings
blackened torn
exploded
it was on
the edge
of the great wave
of flames
that swept over
short of napa
like a knife
the size of the sky
the fire moved
down the ridge
and the
point landed
in the dairy's
front yard
we visit the dairy
at the crossroads
of three ways
it is an example
of how some are
fortunate to be alive
and others are not
----
Napa Road at Highway 121
11.19.17
at the crossroads
of three ways
it has burned down
fire is violent
the buildings
blackened torn
exploded
it was on
the edge
of the great wave
of flames
that swept over
short of napa
like a knife
the size of the sky
the fire moved
down the ridge
and the
point landed
in the dairy's
front yard
we visit the dairy
at the crossroads
of three ways
it is an example
of how some are
fortunate to be alive
and others are not
----
Napa Road at Highway 121
11.19.17
Poem: only/ the continuing strain
for Alpha and Latif
walking this country road
thoughts come and go quickly
like the small birds that land
on the wire fence of the pasture
thoughts as constant as
the flock with a mini flurry
all rush
at once into the grass
**
we are always thinking
imaging to be diligent and firm
having no hypocrisy but we'd could be
as easily in the opposite direction
with no overwhelming
conviction or offence
only
the continuing strain
**
the only action thus
is to be kind to others
for the sake of kindness
for the mercy of mercy
for the desire to not scatter them
for they will go
in all directions
with one unkind word
****
Napa, CA
11.19.17
Wednesday, November 15, 2017
Poem: follow the lines of the trees
follow the lines of the trees
starting in the confused tangle
of all this earth below and
winter forest with bracken
the branches raising up
crossing one another and reaching
up up up they go reaching
until they seem to enter the sky
when snow is falling and you are quiet
when you sense it you may
suddenly feel a hush and pray
of all the wonderful ways
we are ushered into this endless sky
**
In the Fields of
Osseo
starting in the confused tangle
of all this earth below and
winter forest with bracken
the branches raising up
crossing one another and reaching
up up up they go reaching
until they seem to enter the sky
when snow is falling and you are quiet
when you sense it you may
suddenly feel a hush and pray
of all the wonderful ways
we are ushered into this endless sky
**
In the Fields of
Osseo
Poem: is there/ is here
frustrated when circumstances come to fruition
like clapping your hands and being upset
at the echoes
or
deciding to be in a mood
like choosing a hat or pants or jacket
and saying this is who i am
because
opinions are just like this
we try them on and use some of them
say it is us until they become threadbare
every idea or opinion
has worn out eventually though use
to be replaced by a new one
so
why do we need them if these are so false
why why indeed
why why indeed
is there emptiness beyond thought and mood
is there
is there
**
like clapping your hands and being upset
at the echoes
or
deciding to be in a mood
like choosing a hat or pants or jacket
and saying this is who i am
because
opinions are just like this
we try them on and use some of them
say it is us until they become threadbare
every idea or opinion
has worn out eventually though use
to be replaced by a new one
so
why do we need them if these are so false
why why indeed
why why indeed
is there emptiness beyond thought and mood
is there
is there
**
Tuesday, November 14, 2017
Poem: i am on my own/ you are too
i am on my own
you are too
facing days
with a certain ache
but some are
stronger than others
they can bear it
or even enjoy this
strangers amongst strangers
driving home
at the supermarket
at the gym
everywhere
**
you are too
facing days
with a certain ache
but some are
stronger than others
they can bear it
or even enjoy this
strangers amongst strangers
driving home
at the supermarket
at the gym
everywhere
**
The Thunderbolt
where you are
if you can see us
i'd bet you'd be amused
me writing poems
about missing you
you'd hope they'd
be good ones
but we both know
how limited this
thinking is
there's not
a lot of material
left to ponder
and wax on about
the rest of it
tends to prattle
gradually become
a thousand misremebers
flawed all saying
we are the essence the
pith of what was
representing
compelling nothing
..
but the
electric essence
of you the boom
the crash
the explosion and flash
as nature
the thunderbolt
this was you
and it is burned
into my heart
-----
for Robert Funge
if you can see us
i'd bet you'd be amused
me writing poems
about missing you
you'd hope they'd
be good ones
but we both know
how limited this
thinking is
there's not
a lot of material
left to ponder
and wax on about
the rest of it
tends to prattle
gradually become
a thousand misremebers
flawed all saying
we are the essence the
pith of what was
representing
compelling nothing
..
but the
electric essence
of you the boom
the crash
the explosion and flash
as nature
the thunderbolt
this was you
and it is burned
into my heart
-----
for Robert Funge
Saturday, November 11, 2017
Poem: regarding new fallen snow
a soft snowy night
the flakes all fallen
in a bed of white
one requires nothing
other than this snow
all thoughts gone
worry unknown
self entranced
any questions beguiled
regarding new fallen snow
---
Eagle Lake
11.10.17
the flakes all fallen
in a bed of white
one requires nothing
other than this snow
all thoughts gone
worry unknown
self entranced
any questions beguiled
regarding new fallen snow
---
Eagle Lake
11.10.17
Thursday, November 09, 2017
Poem: i have hope/ when i look up/ at the gently snowing sky
i have hope
when i look up
at the gently snowing sky
i can imagine
stepping on the big flakes
as they gently twirl down
how high
could i climb when
the big snow gently falls
up to a place
where i could easily see
the whole town and even city
and the country
all around on both sides
with lakes and trees and fields
there i'd even
be able to see you
and you could see me
waving and
smiling in the
gently snowing sky
**
when i look up
at the gently snowing sky
i can imagine
stepping on the big flakes
as they gently twirl down
how high
could i climb when
the big snow gently falls
up to a place
where i could easily see
the whole town and even city
and the country
all around on both sides
with lakes and trees and fields
there i'd even
be able to see you
and you could see me
waving and
smiling in the
gently snowing sky
**
Tuesday, November 07, 2017
Poem: to support the assertion/ you can catch the magic snowflake
to support the assertion
you can catch the magic snowflake
on the tip of your nose
if you practice
i will try
all winter whenever it snows
and also dance with a friend if i can
in a field or on a path
or on the sidewalk
we'll laugh so much
but be up to the challenge
and that is what
the finer things in life
are about
***
you can catch the magic snowflake
on the tip of your nose
if you practice
i will try
all winter whenever it snows
and also dance with a friend if i can
in a field or on a path
or on the sidewalk
we'll laugh so much
but be up to the challenge
and that is what
the finer things in life
are about
***
Saturday, November 04, 2017
Poem: go / beyond your every thought/ and every plan
do you see this striving
no i am not like you
i am not like your faults
the more i say i am not
the more i testify it is so
we are one and same
but to be human is to defer
how we are identical and afraid
praise supposed uniqueness
this becoming possibly
a terminal desease
of denial and anger
we theorize on claims
of heroism and courage
stories of where we've been
but the bucket of self
is just that a bucket
broken in the bottom
even god or death
cannot fill it
*
go beyond
your every thought
faults and every plan
**
no i am not like you
i am not like your faults
the more i say i am not
the more i testify it is so
we are one and same
but to be human is to defer
how we are identical and afraid
praise supposed uniqueness
this becoming possibly
a terminal desease
of denial and anger
we theorize on claims
of heroism and courage
stories of where we've been
but the bucket of self
is just that a bucket
broken in the bottom
even god or death
cannot fill it
*
go beyond
your every thought
faults and every plan
**
Friday, November 03, 2017
facing an empty window
with a pristine crescent moon
no stars in view
the heart beats faster
just like it does in deepest night
you alone in a forest
fear and wonder
of the same clothes same cloth
mind saying yes or no
all of us naked
underneath all our projects
all our opinions
facing windows
forests and darkness nights
with others or alone
000
with a pristine crescent moon
no stars in view
the heart beats faster
just like it does in deepest night
you alone in a forest
fear and wonder
of the same clothes same cloth
mind saying yes or no
all of us naked
underneath all our projects
all our opinions
facing windows
forests and darkness nights
with others or alone
000
Poem: now you're there in the museum of thought
i thought i was getting to know you
truth is i don't really know what it was, what is thought
you'd rather find someone else
i know nothing of others
though i think at times i can guess
will i always be wrong, i don't know
i always wanted to be the one
who deals with regret swiftly and decisively, then forgets
but i'll be thinking about you from time to time
i do think about the places i've been
and the people i've met and seen
now you're there in the museum of thought
____
11.03.17
truth is i don't really know what it was, what is thought
you'd rather find someone else
i know nothing of others
though i think at times i can guess
will i always be wrong, i don't know
i always wanted to be the one
who deals with regret swiftly and decisively, then forgets
but i'll be thinking about you from time to time
i do think about the places i've been
and the people i've met and seen
now you're there in the museum of thought
____
11.03.17
Wednesday, November 01, 2017
Monday, October 30, 2017
Sunday, October 29, 2017
Online Dating
waiting for someone of promise
who will never arrive
someone who does not exist
but wanted and missed
they're an illusion a dream
the scam of all scams
you've bamboozled your own self
try not to be disappointed
**
waiting for someone of promise
who will never arrive
someone who does not exist
but wanted and missed
they're an illusion a dream
the scam of all scams
you've bamboozled your own self
but also as a fool look forward
like one wedge drives out
another wedge
so the fool eventually abandons
every kind of foolery
*
ah realization
though even this thing
in the end you have journey
beyond hope and fear
**
who will never arrive
someone who does not exist
but wanted and missed
they're an illusion a dream
the scam of all scams
you've bamboozled your own self
try not to be disappointed
**
waiting for someone of promise
who will never arrive
someone who does not exist
but wanted and missed
they're an illusion a dream
the scam of all scams
you've bamboozled your own self
but also as a fool look forward
like one wedge drives out
another wedge
so the fool eventually abandons
every kind of foolery
*
ah realization
though even this thing
in the end you have journey
beyond hope and fear
**
Saturday, October 28, 2017
i have no anger in me
only ingenious defiance
learning as a little child
the freedom of imagination
to escape the domination
of stupid mindless adults
now at this time of life
i am almost one of them
but still with some tricks
still willing to play
the defiance entrenched
inner child shocked
conserve
the precious eyes
listen selectively
move lightly
listen carefully
burn brighter
invited to be ugly
demure
getting used to horror
makes one a horror
**
only ingenious defiance
learning as a little child
the freedom of imagination
to escape the domination
of stupid mindless adults
now at this time of life
i am almost one of them
but still with some tricks
still willing to play
the defiance entrenched
inner child shocked
conserve
the precious eyes
listen selectively
move lightly
listen carefully
burn brighter
invited to be ugly
demure
getting used to horror
makes one a horror
**
Friday, October 27, 2017
a poem to all the furniture i don't have
in my heart
if you come by and stay
it looks a bit bare
i've given it all away
but there is a lot of room
in a unburdened space
where words can live or stories told
of what was had and got
lost and refound
a poem to all the places in mind's mind
that we forgot
a bit for what we remember
it all is getting worn away
the more we go over
what got us here
to this clear place
where words can live or stories told
of what was had and got
lost and refound
**
in my heart
if you come by and stay
it looks a bit bare
i've given it all away
but there is a lot of room
in a unburdened space
where words can live or stories told
of what was had and got
lost and refound
a poem to all the places in mind's mind
that we forgot
a bit for what we remember
it all is getting worn away
the more we go over
what got us here
to this clear place
where words can live or stories told
of what was had and got
lost and refound
**
Thursday, October 26, 2017
Tuesday, October 24, 2017
Saturday, October 21, 2017
in lamantia
it is all there you told me
so i read
lamantia and felt nothing
read his
poems again then looking
but when
you passed away this fall
i read
lamantia again and this time
i saw
when you're missing someone
then lamantia
is crystal clear and piercing
lamantia writing
to every broken heart ever was
lamantia writing
to every searcher who cant stop searching
**
for Latif
10.21.17
it is all there you told me
so i read
lamantia and felt nothing
read his
poems again then looking
but when
you passed away this fall
i read
lamantia again and this time
i saw
when you're missing someone
then lamantia
is crystal clear and piercing
lamantia writing
to every broken heart ever was
lamantia writing
to every searcher who cant stop searching
**
for Latif
10.21.17
Friday, October 20, 2017
excitement of seeing
someone new
how would that be?
a pleasant restaurant
four thirty on a wednesday
as nice as you like
the line between
a good impression
or silly disaster
looking in a mirror
am i older and
does it matter
should one bring
a sassy rose
in the teeth
a note describing
the flights and
fancies of birds
or a suede jacket
like a hipster
fed on wisdom
no nothing
will do only
a shy face
or better
a smile
and hello!
**
someone new
how would that be?
a pleasant restaurant
four thirty on a wednesday
as nice as you like
the line between
a good impression
or silly disaster
looking in a mirror
am i older and
does it matter
should one bring
a sassy rose
in the teeth
a note describing
the flights and
fancies of birds
or a suede jacket
like a hipster
fed on wisdom
no nothing
will do only
a shy face
or better
a smile
and hello!
**
Monday, October 16, 2017
you admire in yourself
how so many love you
making you feel secretly proud
i just one of the chorus
you let me be devoted
for you to feel exalted
given over
to this temporary power
higher than death on it
more glad than the sun or stars
brighter and more alluring
than the moon
you grew tired of me
of my hands of my words
of my face of my body
longing increased
anger and fear too
then only yourself to you
but when it is dark
i am the one you left behind
i am the one you aren't thinking of
you can go with as many lovers
i'll still be on your mind
i am the one you left behind
so speaks the withering ego
relentless like a wound mechanism
like a wounded abomination
to be free of such sentiments
freedom itself without any limits
wide as the sky without any ending
even pat-a-cake and kisses
have the essence of redemption
not even separate from other forms
**
how so many love you
making you feel secretly proud
i just one of the chorus
you let me be devoted
for you to feel exalted
given over
to this temporary power
higher than death on it
more glad than the sun or stars
brighter and more alluring
than the moon
you grew tired of me
of my hands of my words
of my face of my body
longing increased
anger and fear too
then only yourself to you
but when it is dark
i am the one you left behind
i am the one you aren't thinking of
you can go with as many lovers
i'll still be on your mind
i am the one you left behind
so speaks the withering ego
relentless like a wound mechanism
like a wounded abomination
to be free of such sentiments
freedom itself without any limits
wide as the sky without any ending
even pat-a-cake and kisses
have the essence of redemption
not even separate from other forms
**
Thursday, October 12, 2017
if i could live forever/ all my friends would get old and die
if i could live forever
all my friends would get old and die
before i noticed
if i was going to live forever
i'd never love you
the way i do
i'd be unmoved by fires and floods
suffering and lonliness
night or day
but i'm getting older and i can't stop
my loved ones aging like me
hard not to see this
i'm rounding each year after year
you are somewhere else
i am here
now towns burn and cities sink
breaking hearts further because
we only have each other
the selfish face the night and curse
that dark is coming
like an unstoppable tide
the heart can make bliss out of nothing
even if we have nothing
after we wasted our gifts
it all starts with the salvation
of leaving the crushing of ego
helping those in need
reclamation of self is never too late
if one looks to be kind to others
and help any way they can
then through this you will find the self
is not what you thought it was
by letting it go
***
all my friends would get old and die
before i noticed
if i was going to live forever
i'd never love you
the way i do
i'd be unmoved by fires and floods
suffering and lonliness
night or day
but i'm getting older and i can't stop
my loved ones aging like me
hard not to see this
i'm rounding each year after year
you are somewhere else
i am here
now towns burn and cities sink
breaking hearts further because
we only have each other
the selfish face the night and curse
that dark is coming
like an unstoppable tide
the heart can make bliss out of nothing
even if we have nothing
after we wasted our gifts
it all starts with the salvation
of leaving the crushing of ego
helping those in need
reclamation of self is never too late
if one looks to be kind to others
and help any way they can
then through this you will find the self
is not what you thought it was
by letting it go
***
Tuesday, October 03, 2017
Poem: and there's / so much love
i let go
and its
all right
and i keep
letting go
after i
grab on
tight
i remember
i let go
because
everything
i worried
about
wasn't true
or what
i thought
it was
and there's
so much love
as much
as light
as much
as rain
in every thing
everywhere
when i stop
and surrender
time goes
away
and i'm
back in the
now loving
everyone
everything
and its OK
it doesn't
matter
what i
got or
what i think
i lost
all that
matters is
i'm here
in the now
ready to love
some more
___
and its
all right
and i keep
letting go
after i
grab on
tight
i remember
i let go
because
everything
i worried
about
wasn't true
or what
i thought
it was
and there's
so much love
as much
as light
as much
as rain
in every thing
everywhere
when i stop
and surrender
time goes
away
and i'm
back in the
now loving
everyone
everything
and its OK
it doesn't
matter
what i
got or
what i think
i lost
all that
matters is
i'm here
in the now
ready to love
some more
___
Friday, September 29, 2017
for most
words become too important
if typed up
then we
punch at them
like the empty things
they are
there were
poets who wanted to live
only for writing
to be able to have
the words
and knew
poverty would
follow
oh to see the world
and live only for poetry
every writing
more precious
than amber
than pearls
or carbuncles
words become too important
if typed up
then we
punch at them
like the empty things
they are
there were
poets who wanted to live
only for writing
to be able to have
the words
and knew
poverty would
follow
oh to see the world
and live only for poetry
every writing
more precious
than amber
than pearls
or carbuncles
Thursday, September 28, 2017
Recollection
i have not seen you for at least 3 years
might be more than that
today i looked at a picture i have of you
for the first time in all those years
i had deliberately not looked
at any pictures
i didn't know what would happen
would i go crazy would i be angry
i felt very little
i was surprised because i recognized you
at the same time your face was like that of a stranger
i did not see the person
i remember in the photograph
i am not the person who loved you
i have a pair of jeans that were brand new
when i met you and we were together
they are falling apart now and patched
still my favorite but all worn out
____
9.28.17
might be more than that
today i looked at a picture i have of you
for the first time in all those years
i had deliberately not looked
at any pictures
i didn't know what would happen
would i go crazy would i be angry
i felt very little
i was surprised because i recognized you
at the same time your face was like that of a stranger
i did not see the person
i remember in the photograph
i am not the person who loved you
i have a pair of jeans that were brand new
when i met you and we were together
they are falling apart now and patched
still my favorite but all worn out
____
9.28.17
Tuesday, September 26, 2017
For Richard
his eyes are clear
he suffers no fools
but he is kind as well
surprise the light of
unexpected ways
sometimes
he'd do a kind thing
not to be caught
and smile to himself
joy unchained
open yet deep
at times so deep
knowable like
a quiet space
favorite place
he moves gracefully
if he is on the lake
he was the water
the sky
his eyes are blue
the feeling of lightening
just before or after
a storm
you do not see him
in one place
he is everywhere
____
For Richard
he suffers no fools
but he is kind as well
surprise the light of
unexpected ways
sometimes
he'd do a kind thing
not to be caught
and smile to himself
joy unchained
open yet deep
at times so deep
knowable like
a quiet space
favorite place
he moves gracefully
if he is on the lake
he was the water
the sky
his eyes are blue
the feeling of lightening
just before or after
a storm
you do not see him
in one place
he is everywhere
____
For Richard
Saturday, September 23, 2017
never separated
my lack of discipline
i call motivating ego
my hypocrisy i call
natural contradictions
it all breaths fear
of what will happen next
i am the cause of my own
actions and selfishness
i can stay this way
or i am free to change
i can through action
reveal a higher perception
no longer blame
you or others for failings
i can be diligent
devoted and tolerant
and even find that
i have been never separated
from my faith
i call motivating ego
my hypocrisy i call
natural contradictions
it all breaths fear
of what will happen next
i am the cause of my own
actions and selfishness
i can stay this way
or i am free to change
i can through action
reveal a higher perception
no longer blame
you or others for failings
i can be diligent
devoted and tolerant
and even find that
i have been never separated
from my faith
Sunday, September 03, 2017
45th Ave @ William Blake Road
oh if you think you're a person
then i am a glass of water
five miles tall
glowing neon at night
oh if you are a person
i am an intelligent kite
that flies within
an owl made of tractors
oh bright day
without any personality
fingers or anything
at all
____
for Jñana
then i am a glass of water
five miles tall
glowing neon at night
oh if you are a person
i am an intelligent kite
that flies within
an owl made of tractors
oh bright day
without any personality
fingers or anything
at all
____
for Jñana
i'm glad you judged me harshly
i'm glad you condemned me
i'm glad you think i'm defective
because now
i get to practice unrequested kindness
i get to love without expectations
and be compassionate when no one is
i'll never be rid of my old tired ideas
or challenge myself unless i have you
... saying you're more virtuous than me
i'll never be rid of my old tired ideas
or challenge myself unless i have you
... saying you are more trustworthy than me
i'll never be rid of my old tired ideas
or challenge myself unless i have you
... saying you are more honest than me
so thank you
i'm glad you condemned me
i'm glad you think i'm defective
because now
i get to practice unrequested kindness
i get to love without expectations
and be compassionate when no one is
i'll never be rid of my old tired ideas
or challenge myself unless i have you
... saying you're more virtuous than me
i'll never be rid of my old tired ideas
or challenge myself unless i have you
... saying you are more trustworthy than me
i'll never be rid of my old tired ideas
or challenge myself unless i have you
... saying you are more honest than me
so thank you
Monday, August 28, 2017
Saturday, August 26, 2017
Wednesday, August 23, 2017
on this day we are like spun sugar cotton candy
"Who did you decide to become this time?
Wow! That is neat!"
-- Samantabhadra
on this day we are like spun sugar cotton candy
in the penetrating sun all bright and light
we are like dancing kites balloons
zooming like larks zooming like the light
on this day we are all samely successful
becoming who we are and unbecoming it
just dropping it later in the end like
an old pair of pants or threadbare excuse
to drop all like a shell like a battle like
a saddle like a leaky boat like an old shoe
not needed for anything now used into
the endlessness of a view that is beyond
home again in the beginningless beginning
and to be in it like this oh heaven
you might consult and decide to come back
if you could be of some help or of some joy
___
For Latif
Wow! That is neat!"
-- Samantabhadra
on this day we are like spun sugar cotton candy
in the penetrating sun all bright and light
we are like dancing kites balloons
zooming like larks zooming like the light
on this day we are all samely successful
becoming who we are and unbecoming it
just dropping it later in the end like
an old pair of pants or threadbare excuse
to drop all like a shell like a battle like
a saddle like a leaky boat like an old shoe
not needed for anything now used into
the endlessness of a view that is beyond
home again in the beginningless beginning
and to be in it like this oh heaven
you might consult and decide to come back
if you could be of some help or of some joy
___
For Latif
Sunday, August 20, 2017
he's looking out the window
occasionally laughing and smiling
at the endlessness of it and the beauty
while i'd be wondering why
it had to rain today of all days
he has deathlessness in his eyes
in his smile in his hands in his face
in his walk in his clothes in his cup
in his shoes in these memories
i hear crickets tonight
-----
for Tesdrup Tharchin
occasionally laughing and smiling
at the endlessness of it and the beauty
while i'd be wondering why
it had to rain today of all days
he has deathlessness in his eyes
in his smile in his hands in his face
in his walk in his clothes in his cup
in his shoes in these memories
i hear crickets tonight
-----
for Tesdrup Tharchin
Saturday, August 19, 2017
i have a million stars
i have a million stars
in my mind as i walk a country road
i'm treading over fields of forever
vineyard noisemakers like cannons
boom boom boom
how can stars
and beings made from star dust
not ever think of one another
and birds flying up some
to other solar systems
if you said
**
Napa
8-18
in my mind as i walk a country road
i'm treading over fields of forever
vineyard noisemakers like cannons
boom boom boom
how can stars
and beings made from star dust
not ever think of one another
and birds flying up some
to other solar systems
if you said
**
Napa
8-18
on what might be possible / or what we feel is impossible
on what might be possible
or what we feel is impossible
what we feel is closed or open
or a relationship lost or found
we know nothing
knowing we know so little
of this be encouraged
expect good news
embrace everything
keep your heart open
and life will knock the rust
off mental hinges
and doors
will be blown open and you
can embrace a bigger heart
a wild bright love
will come your way
and you will catch your breath
and be alive and not transform
into a quiet ball of lead
there's no order
to the shakeup of an old life
staid dread certainty
old abuse falls and
because we are love
love finds us
_____
or what we feel is impossible
what we feel is closed or open
or a relationship lost or found
we know nothing
knowing we know so little
of this be encouraged
expect good news
embrace everything
keep your heart open
and life will knock the rust
off mental hinges
and doors
will be blown open and you
can embrace a bigger heart
a wild bright love
will come your way
and you will catch your breath
and be alive and not transform
into a quiet ball of lead
there's no order
to the shakeup of an old life
staid dread certainty
old abuse falls and
because we are love
love finds us
_____
Monday, August 07, 2017
grand illusion
it rains
i play the accordion
i walk the unpaved road
people stop on their way to the lake
they roll down their windows
they smile and ask me to play happy birthday
i play
i'm playing my dreams
playing into the past into the future
i'm not here in the body or this instrument
there's no afternoon or road or gently falling rain
no happy birthday tune no people enjoying the song
we're all
discovering over
and over again a grand illusion
one that is as amazing as it is heartbreaking
loving it is like an afternoon with gently falling rain
on a road with mysterious persons meeting and parting
*
Eagle Lake
Late Summer 2017
i play the accordion
i walk the unpaved road
people stop on their way to the lake
they roll down their windows
they smile and ask me to play happy birthday
i play
i'm playing my dreams
playing into the past into the future
i'm not here in the body or this instrument
there's no afternoon or road or gently falling rain
no happy birthday tune no people enjoying the song
we're all
discovering over
and over again a grand illusion
one that is as amazing as it is heartbreaking
loving it is like an afternoon with gently falling rain
on a road with mysterious persons meeting and parting
*
Eagle Lake
Late Summer 2017
Sunday, August 06, 2017
i don't understand / but i know it is fine
-- August 6
i don't understand
but i know it is fine
my whole life
has been this way
when i was little
i could not make it wrong
with thinking
excusing or whatever
i have to keep
remembering how simple
how totally
wonderful everything is
because every time
you see something again
it is a new object
and you have different eyes
this means
you and i are loved
this means
you and i are free
we have
always been so always will
**
for Tesdrup Tharchin
... everything you taught me
i don't understand
but i know it is fine
my whole life
has been this way
when i was little
i could not make it wrong
with thinking
excusing or whatever
i have to keep
remembering how simple
how totally
wonderful everything is
because every time
you see something again
it is a new object
and you have different eyes
this means
you and i are loved
this means
you and i are free
we have
always been so always will
**
for Tesdrup Tharchin
... everything you taught me
Wednesday, August 02, 2017
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